im sorry, i just typed out a rly awesome blogg post that explained evry last interesting thing ive done since my last post and my lil bro ''accidentally'' closed it...no its oy in drafts eather... fucker!!! im sooo pissed right now. and wen i ask y he did it my dad threatened to turn off the internet for a week cos im always accusing sam of shit, that he fucking dose!!1
arrrggg
Friday, September 11, 2009
Monday, July 27, 2009
im was just wondering, when the fuck will my *ugly phase* be over? its been lke 3 yrs, and i just wanna know how much longer. i want to know when will i finaly be able to look in the mirror and be happy with what i see!? o well, if anyone actualy reads this, tell me when urs ended, or if ur still havin it how old u r. its annoying... anyway, i say if anyone actualy reads this cos im pretty sure no one dose. i know i hav 4 subscribers, but still. dose anyone read it? o well, i guess its just that bloggs hav gone out of style, but i lke them. i guess its more of vlogging. idk, i lke this but if i could i would do a vlog evry-now-and-again. yeah... mby blogs will go back in style. idk, o well. another fad i was to late for. lol, its funny cos its true.
ok, im going to paint my room. i hav a color i want. its yellow. yeah. its supposed to be a happy color, and ive been trying to change. it hasnt been easy, but im doing it! its rly hot in cali, and im 97% sure the air vent in my room is for decoration. cos it doesnt work. ive been thinking about cutting alot less.
yesterday he cam down! i had a great day. went to hot topic, i got alice in wonderland perfume, emily the strange gloves, invader zim pencils, chairly the unicorn lip balm, and a support the arts pencil set. then we went to bath and body and i got spray, (sxy) lotion, and on the go roll on fragrence shizzz. yeah
eright now im listen 2 katy perry, i hav candles going and as the song says 'i saw a spider, i didnt scream' i just smacked it. lol. yeah, i love this song.
*takes off shirt* sry its too hot for a black shirt. lol, anywayy that was kinda a weird moment. i was thinking today, restricted things are way to tempting! i was thinking this because i saw 2 lke 5/6th graders looking at a sex book. and im thinking, its not just because they have boobs in ther, its because they arent supposed to. i admit it, i go to the gay/lesbian section at barns and noble and look through the books. i rly do it cos im not supposed to be looking at 'my first time' or 'gay karma sutra' or 'the ultimate lesbian sex book'(im usualy w/ one of my many girl friends) lol. i look at that to see ther faces cos they know im gay. anyway, o and y dont they just go to that section and look at 2 chicks doing it? i mean im not straight or bi, but dont guys lke that sorta thing? idk straight guys are only good for one thing to me, making them feel uncomfortable. lol. thats lke my sport. anyway, i should get to bed soon. im gonna wait a lil wile longer. mby work on my book. idk, ttyl
yesterday he cam down! i had a great day. went to hot topic, i got alice in wonderland perfume, emily the strange gloves, invader zim pencils, chairly the unicorn lip balm, and a support the arts pencil set. then we went to bath and body and i got spray, (sxy) lotion, and on the go roll on fragrence shizzz. yeah
eright now im listen 2 katy perry, i hav candles going and as the song says 'i saw a spider, i didnt scream' i just smacked it. lol. yeah, i love this song.
*takes off shirt* sry its too hot for a black shirt. lol, anywayy that was kinda a weird moment. i was thinking today, restricted things are way to tempting! i was thinking this because i saw 2 lke 5/6th graders looking at a sex book. and im thinking, its not just because they have boobs in ther, its because they arent supposed to. i admit it, i go to the gay/lesbian section at barns and noble and look through the books. i rly do it cos im not supposed to be looking at 'my first time' or 'gay karma sutra' or 'the ultimate lesbian sex book'(im usualy w/ one of my many girl friends) lol. i look at that to see ther faces cos they know im gay. anyway, o and y dont they just go to that section and look at 2 chicks doing it? i mean im not straight or bi, but dont guys lke that sorta thing? idk straight guys are only good for one thing to me, making them feel uncomfortable. lol. thats lke my sport. anyway, i should get to bed soon. im gonna wait a lil wile longer. mby work on my book. idk, ttyl
Sunday, July 19, 2009
rrg
lol
im trying to get an actualy pic of me for my photo id on here
instead of the tomato
but i cant :/
but here, im going to try and link it to my profile on myspace
riiiigghhtt here-----> http://viewmorepics.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=viewImage&friendID=438719981&albumID=431588&imageID=11433500
i hope someone knows how to do it, cos i dont lol
o wooow, anywayyy.... dude how come no ones commenting? i love it when i read ur guyses comments! i read all of them...
anyway away from that thought... o todays my little bros bday, hes 9
we went shooting, yeah so did i
i actualy shot a shotgun
it was kinda fun, i guess i have a talent at it cos i kept hitting the red dot in the center of the paper.
(yeah we only shot at pices of target paper!)
im reading "kiss of life"
its so good! ive always loves Karen!
lol
im jealous of her eyes and skin...
is that weird?
o well, and idk if i said this b4 but i remember posting that i would find out when me and my current boyfriend first started dateing, march 24, 2009!
yeahhhh
lol
ok, well..
COMMENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
enough of my crazyness for now byee
im trying to get an actualy pic of me for my photo id on here
instead of the tomato
but i cant :/
but here, im going to try and link it to my profile on myspace
riiiigghhtt here-----> http://viewmorepics.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=viewImage&friendID=438719981&albumID=431588&imageID=11433500
i hope someone knows how to do it, cos i dont lol
o wooow, anywayyy.... dude how come no ones commenting? i love it when i read ur guyses comments! i read all of them...
anyway away from that thought... o todays my little bros bday, hes 9
we went shooting, yeah so did i
i actualy shot a shotgun
it was kinda fun, i guess i have a talent at it cos i kept hitting the red dot in the center of the paper.
(yeah we only shot at pices of target paper!)
im reading "kiss of life"
its so good! ive always loves Karen!
lol
im jealous of her eyes and skin...
is that weird?
o well, and idk if i said this b4 but i remember posting that i would find out when me and my current boyfriend first started dateing, march 24, 2009!
yeahhhh
lol
ok, well..
COMMENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
enough of my crazyness for now byee
Thursday, July 16, 2009
...
ok, ive noticed that wen im working on my book, i sorta become the charecter. lke in my book ther is me, but right now im kinda snobby and mean and act lke im too good for almost evrything.
and wen im writing for greg(the great dr) i hav a brittish accent...
idk, anyway i guess i feed off the emotions and moods of the senes and wen im done for the day i still live on for them.i look at things from jacobs prospect, lol. ive even developed his attude. but right now in the part ive just written hes lost and scared because he cant remember anything that happend for 3/4 months. i forget which for sure. so its rly good. i just need some more ideas on what to do. because hey, it takes a village to raise a child, not just one person.
on a completly grly note, i had the best date on tuesday! lol. i spent all day w/ my boyfriend. we have been together since march, idk what day... mby i blogged about it. anyway, i got new books, and some bags. i love thm all! i love my boyfriend! i love everything about him!
and off that grly note i have to say somthing...this is kinda gross but.. today i sat in week old cat vomit...lovely i know...
:/
and i say good bye
and wen im writing for greg(the great dr) i hav a brittish accent...
idk, anyway i guess i feed off the emotions and moods of the senes and wen im done for the day i still live on for them.i look at things from jacobs prospect, lol. ive even developed his attude. but right now in the part ive just written hes lost and scared because he cant remember anything that happend for 3/4 months. i forget which for sure. so its rly good. i just need some more ideas on what to do. because hey, it takes a village to raise a child, not just one person.
on a completly grly note, i had the best date on tuesday! lol. i spent all day w/ my boyfriend. we have been together since march, idk what day... mby i blogged about it. anyway, i got new books, and some bags. i love thm all! i love my boyfriend! i love everything about him!
and off that grly note i have to say somthing...this is kinda gross but.. today i sat in week old cat vomit...lovely i know...
:/
and i say good bye
Friday, July 10, 2009
ok, june 21
that weekend was such a fuck up, i will start ther, my current boyfriend and i broke up, i wrote about it in my book. here let me copy and paste what i wrote on it:
...Then it’s as if time stood still, everything slowed down, I was standing outside my own body as these words will be sealed in my memory. “It’s over” he said. I didn’t understand? I didn’t want to.
“Don’t say things you can’t take back” I pleaded.
“If I’m so different form everyone you have ever dated, then why do you treat me like shit!? Why!? Am I to kind? To caring, or compassionate!? Why the fuck do you treat me like shit!?...”
I didn’t hear all his reasons, or why he felt that way. I felt dead. I didn’t want to do anything but die, and this time stay dead like I should have. I saw myself fall to the floor, and say the water rinse over myself. I knew I had to get up. I tried to turn off my emotions, but I found they were already off. I felt numb, like it didn’t matter that I was being burned with the water, I didn’t care. I got up off the floor, turned off the water, got dressed at went to the promotion. The same things playing in my mind…over and over, 4ever and when it all falls apart by The Veronicas, Achilles saying ‘it’s over’, and how I should start living in the moment. The promotion was a blur, so was the rest of the night. I can’t remember much. I remember Joel was there. I am living in the moment. I remember walking home and meting someone. He had short hair, a mix of blond and brown. He had a wimpy little 4-pack, I remember that.Where was I now? I decided to start with things I knew. It was morning. Birds were outside the window. My window. Ok, so I now know I’m in my own room. That’s good, still wearing the same shirt and pants. Even better! Ok, time? What time is it? I looked for my phone; it was on the charger on the deep blue carpet....
yeahhhhh so that was part of the weekend. another was my mom getting sick, idk i was trying not 2 break down. so, that day i got wasted. yeahhh!
anyway...yeahhh
i dont rly feel lke talking now...
o wellllllllllll
lve ya'll
o btw we r back 2gether, and i cant be happyr
...Then it’s as if time stood still, everything slowed down, I was standing outside my own body as these words will be sealed in my memory. “It’s over” he said. I didn’t understand? I didn’t want to.
“Don’t say things you can’t take back” I pleaded.
“If I’m so different form everyone you have ever dated, then why do you treat me like shit!? Why!? Am I to kind? To caring, or compassionate!? Why the fuck do you treat me like shit!?...”
I didn’t hear all his reasons, or why he felt that way. I felt dead. I didn’t want to do anything but die, and this time stay dead like I should have. I saw myself fall to the floor, and say the water rinse over myself. I knew I had to get up. I tried to turn off my emotions, but I found they were already off. I felt numb, like it didn’t matter that I was being burned with the water, I didn’t care. I got up off the floor, turned off the water, got dressed at went to the promotion. The same things playing in my mind…over and over, 4ever and when it all falls apart by The Veronicas, Achilles saying ‘it’s over’, and how I should start living in the moment. The promotion was a blur, so was the rest of the night. I can’t remember much. I remember Joel was there. I am living in the moment. I remember walking home and meting someone. He had short hair, a mix of blond and brown. He had a wimpy little 4-pack, I remember that.Where was I now? I decided to start with things I knew. It was morning. Birds were outside the window. My window. Ok, so I now know I’m in my own room. That’s good, still wearing the same shirt and pants. Even better! Ok, time? What time is it? I looked for my phone; it was on the charger on the deep blue carpet....
yeahhhhh so that was part of the weekend. another was my mom getting sick, idk i was trying not 2 break down. so, that day i got wasted. yeahhh!
anyway...yeahhh
i dont rly feel lke talking now...
o wellllllllllll
lve ya'll
o btw we r back 2gether, and i cant be happyr
life
o woow, i guess u can say ive been busy. hang on, ima do another post to see if i hav new comments, and when my last post was. is it bad that i dont even remember?
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