tryin to change

when did life become so goddamn confusing!?! im trying to change...its hard. ive had my heart brokein by someone who dosent know my name. HOW DOSE THAT HAPPEN!?! i feel so ugly, and i when i walk into a room all i can think about is if ther thinking about me. im NOT THE SAME PERSON I WAS!!! its hard tho, i keep fearin im falling into my old habbits. not anymore!!! no more heart breaks, fear, trying to be something im not, and worring about what people think of me!!!if they dont like it i dont care!!! o i met someone today. we talked, and ate.i took it slow the old jacob would have started makeing out as soon as the movie started. but i didnt the most that happend was we held hands. i have plans again with him tomorow. and im lookin forward to it. he dosent go to my school, he goes to high school.:] thanks for listen to my crazyness