tryin to change

when did life become so goddamn confusing!?! im trying to change...its hard. ive had my heart brokein by someone who dosent know my name. HOW DOSE THAT HAPPEN!?! i feel so ugly, and i when i walk into a room all i can think about is if ther thinking about me. im NOT THE SAME PERSON I WAS!!! its hard tho, i keep fearin im falling into my old habbits. not anymore!!! no more heart breaks, fear, trying to be something im not, and worring about what people think of me!!!if they dont like it i dont care!!! o i met someone today. we talked, and ate.i took it slow the old jacob would have started makeing out as soon as the movie started. but i didnt the most that happend was we held hands. i have plans again with him tomorow. and im lookin forward to it. he dosent go to my school, he goes to high school.:] thanks for listen to my crazyness

sleepy

arrg!!!well im sleepy.o im reading eclips, its awsome!!!i heart alice!!! she roxx!!!o listen to this,i need a new jacket,so i tell my mom.she goes to the malll wen im at skwl,and wen i get home she bought herself a new jacket. and i got a 25 cent ball!!! yea who cares about a jacket wen its raining,every one knows u need a rubber ball!!! o and u wanna know wat she tells me"fine if u dont want ur gift, the dog can have it and we wll go to the mall tomorow"[which iz today]so i get up,dressed,and get in the car.we get to the mall annd i see a jacket i lve!!! it was perfact!!!but of course i cant get it because it was too expencive.IT WAS $20 on clearence!!!yea and she picks out an ugly orange jacket thats $45 and she gets it,for her again!!!

thinking

i was thinking about karma, u know wat goes around comes around, well doesn't karma need bad pple to help the good pple? lets say sum one pushes u, u fall and get hurt ok. by the principle of karma u need sum one else to do sum than bad? right? it cancels itself out! it needs bad pple to help the good pple. if everyone was good [which is impossilble] the world would end up..........well ending...right? if im wronge tell me i enjoy reading wat pple have to say about wat i say and to the comments of my first post im only 13 and i love the expression "dont get ur knickers in a twist"