shit

ok so he ,Aiden, txted me, thanks again raven, and i still love him. shit. and even if i talk to u u dont know everything. to day was full of me bein tired of bein compared to breana. my cuzzin. the perfact model who is a great singer, 4.00 GPA and soccer superstar. 'shes so pretty' but thats not me. im not perfect. im not pretty. i would love to be like her. she gets A's and A+'s i get c's and b's. she gets all the sexy shoots, im an extra. i was an extra on a sexy shoot but u cant see me. o well this is cali. so how much longer should i wait?she gets a bf and ther awesome. mine beat me. i can look hot. i can be sexy. i just make mistakes sometimes, i did get an a+ twice, though i may have flirted with a teacher and the other one was my pe teacher and i was always used for the chear leaders to throw me up in the air (hey im wayyyy skinny wat am i gonna do?). she nvr goes out to partys and dancing like me. god shes perfect..... wtf happend 2 me? im sending friend requests to random hot guys. i want a new boyfriend but im not ovr aiden....i want aiden damn-it!!!god im messed up. he was getting better! he had meds, and therapy, and.... i felt better with him. i wanna be somebody eles.